The emotional issue you’re having is mirrored in your childhood somewhere.
Client story (talked about with permission) So today in session I had someone come in, and she was confused about her pricing and her services a little bit. She was looking for clarity around what she wanted to charge and couldn’t decide on a number. So we energetically went into the patterns in her psyche and discovered that when she thought about posting her work on FB she felt one way about it and when she felt into posting her work on Instagram, she felt differently about it. Each group on social media she had… felt different, and thus… HER RESPONSE TO EACH GROUP was different. . So the group energy was DICTATING how she showed up. This is the same as you showing up differently based on WHO IS IN THE ROOM. It’s the pattern of changing yourself to be socially acceptable / included / wanted etc, in order to be safe & accepted, or in her case to ‘receive’.
She was subconsciously reading the group energy and then showing up and feeling her prices needed to be ‘X’ based on what she thought the group would ‘accept’ and she was confused around her offers, because she was changing her ‘offers’ based on what she felt the group would want. (So basically she does not know who she is, it’s who can I be in order to be loved) She was NOT making her decisions based on HER ENERGY. But based not theirs. So she was partially getting / deriving her value and worth from OTHERS, not from SELF. Her sense of what she could receive was based on ‘getting others’ to give to her, and how could she change herself to make that happen. It was NOT based on the intrinsic foundation that she is loved just because… and she deserves to receive just because.
So we moved a little deeper and as a child she was constant trying to figure out how to ‘acceptable’ to her mother in order for her mother to take care of her / get her needs met and not be ignored. And by needs, were talking about base level needs here. She never felt that she could receive just because. She felt she even needed to be ‘good’ in order to get fed. So were talking survival level needs here. This creates a pattern in the subconscious of I am too safe to be myself. I have to change myself to get my needs met. I have to change myself to receive. And you can’t even remember who you are!
Deep patterns like this that happen when your little if not resolved then create the pattern were as an adult you do these weird things, or get confused about things that you know shouldn’t be that hard. And you look around you and they’re not that hard for other people. But then your like, why is this so hard for me? And I find in my work it’s usually because of some patterns like this. But when the root core pattern is brought to the light it’s actually very simple. I’m sure from reading this you can just see how this pattern isn’t that hard to understand when seen at its core level.
And also a pattern like this, of not owning self all the way, and owning your value / worth / boundaries, would create a situation where people perceive that they can ‘move your boundaries’. So, that can look like friends / family members / clients asking you to sacrifice / change yourself / schedule / move your life around to accommodate them. And they do this because they can perceive that your on some level ‘ok’ or available for that. And so they do.
This can also cause people to question you / challenge your authority about things that another part of you feels they shouldn’t. And you may even be confused as to why people treat you this way. And it’s because they sense they can, so they do. They sense they can… because on some deep level you don’t feel like you deserve to have boundaries / or be who you are / or have your needs met. A lot of this has to do with running a care taker or people pleaser archetype. Which most of us all do, until we don’t, because these archetypes can be removed from the subconscious. (Ask me how I know this) and then you stop paying out the roles / emotional patterns / behavior patterns that create patterns like this.
The Dark Goddess
I have been mulling lately on these deeper aspects of self that are showing up in my psyche. And I can feel that my own dark goddess is starting to make herself more and more known lately. That part of me that fully shows up in the darkness. That sees it all. That knows all the patterns and can trace all the deep energy lines.
It’s that part of me that shows up sometimes, but really I keep her in the shadows. She doesn’t fully show up in my life. She is in the fringes of my consciousness. But every time I really need her she is always there for me. Always showing up and clearing or nixing whatever needs to be done in my life. But she gets almost no credit. Even though she helps me immensely. She is the part of me that is not socially acceptable the part of me that has not been front and center and showed up fully within my body. But I can feel her. I can feel her full essence. She is showing up more and more each day. I am letting her in more and more each day. I can see deep level pattern in myself and in the people that show up in my email for sessions. She shows up and shows me the energy patterns that are underlying in peoples consciousness. She takes the surface level problems that people are having in their life and brings up the core root cause of said pattern. She sees patterns across areas of life and traces the energy for me. And I can see it. So clearly. Like never before. And it’s amazing.
Some things I want sorted out in my life, are actually so easy when you look at it on the base level. On the level, beneath the level, beneath the level. And they’re solved just like that. She shows up in session all the time, but doesn’t show up much on FB. And maybe that needs to change. Because truth be told. I actually really like the darkness. It feels like truth to me. It feels real. I see through all the bullshit projections that people make and create and project. And even my fiends, when they have something they don’t want to see themselves, they will literally hide from me. And I know it, because they know I’ll see it, and they don’t want to see it themselves, so they will subconsciously hide from me. It’s a little amusing. But they’re my friends of course so let them have their space. But I can feel her, she’s going to come out in full force soon, and step more into the light.
IF I WERE TO JUST SOLVE MY ISSUE TODAY, THEN WHAT WOULD I NEED TO SEE?
Alright guys, if you’ve followed me for a while you know I am way more into energy work than journaling from the ego. I like journaling, but it is only ONE thing that I’ll sometimes do. But with clients I pretty much only exclusively do energy work, because if you’re on the phone with me then were doing deep level stuff. But anyways, there is a journaling prompt I do use sometimes and it is VERY EFFECTIVE for me. It’s effective partially because of my INTENTION. My intention is NOT to pussy foot around with stuff and ‘solve’ problems, or to ‘wallow’ in any sort of way. I like to connect in and do the most effective thing and then move on to doing the thing / being the person. So that being said, if you have ANYTHING ON YOUR MIND right now that needs sorting… ask this question.
IF I WERE TO JUST SOLVE MY ISSUE TODAY, IN THE NEXT 30 MIN EVEN, THEN WHAT WOULD I NEED TO SEE?
That’s it. That’s the question. You could even ask yourself a further question… IS THERE ANYTHING ELSE I AM IN DENIAL ABOUT ON THIS SUBJECT? And then see what comes up. Because what you don’t want to see, what you are repressing and dancing around is where the gold is.
When I’m doing an energy session and I’m watching a movie in my mind of the archetypes and inner sub-conscious landscapes that are presenting themselves to me, and I see a dark crack, or a gaping black hole, I always go in there and see what information is in there. Because that is where all the gold / change / transformation / epic change is. Don’t be afraid to go into the darkness. It hard to accomplish anything by staying in these realms of fluffy light all of the time.
After that, you could further ask yourself… GIVEN THE INFORMATION I HAVE NOW SEEN, WHAT WOULD I CHOOSE TO DO… TO STILL 100% SOLVE THIS ISSUE TODAY AND BE ABLE TO MOVE ON?
Then you just do that! I have solved many a problem this way and quickly moved on. I think it’s so effective because I am unwilling to argue / resonate with problems for a long period of time. If smoothing comes up that needs to be resolved I am 100% asking myself how do I resolve this right now and never look at it again. Because letting problems hang around creates energy leaks. And too many energy leaks and it’s like death by a 1000 cuts. Don’t do that. Be unwilling to let problems hang around. Delete them. Tell them they have to be out by today or you’re evicting them!
Be the force
Just because mass consciousness is freaking out doesn’t mean that you need to as well. If you feel panic and anxiety over this whole virus thing, the panic and anxiety was there ‘before’ and mass consciousness is just triggering it with in you. You can energetically ‘unhook’ from the morphic field of mass consciousness and consciously choose to tap back into the infinite stream of well-being with in you and AMPLIFY THAT. And TUNE INTO THAT. And feel, what do I need to focus on right now? How do I need to navigate this right now? What is the best thing for me to do now in this moment, and then be guided?
This is exactly how you make money that defies the odds as well. And draw the best clients to you. And the best men for dates! (Hahaha I’m working on this last one)
You ignore / unhook from the ‘noise’ of everyone else and TUNE INTO YOU. And feel yourself so deeply and feel into your inner guidance regarding what is the right path for you. And then you do that. > You become your own FIELD. Can then people calibrate to YOUR FIELD. NOT you calibrate to theirs. But to do that you have to hold a solid presence. And be so tapped into truth, that people can’t not look. Then you create waves out from you. NOT the waves of mass consciousness / your sister / brother / friend from high school send waves out that throw you off.
Become the force.